Ezerel.com is a side-project. I intend to open my mind to public as automatically as I can.
Here are some of my posts.
Good session. Felt the "Aşia" part as strong waves of energy through my back and neck mainly. Personally focused on removing self-judgement & judgement of others. Actually felt like something was lifted out of me. I intend to re-do this session to seal the deal :P
On another note, this was not a deep or medium trans session. I was awake and talked quite a lot during this session; not like mind chatter but more like purposeful interaction and inner repetition of certain constructed sentences, like "I choose not to judge myself anymore."
After the session, as I type these post, I feel calm, peaceful and more intone with myself.
Also, I suspect that the green & purple lines tend to get on top of each other as the trans state becomes deeper. We'll see as I record more sessions in another now.
"The time collapses into now" // "no mind no time" // "Only now exists"
I've been playing with my new Muse 2 + new Galaxy Fold 4 and there seems to be a connectivity issue, thus the first 5 minutes looks flat.
This meditation was "medium depth" for me. No head-drops, managed to stay semi-conscious through out the session. I feel calm & still. During the meditation, I entered to that state where I see things again (which I really enjoy exploring). I remember 3 images; my kitchen and 2 human faces, 1 is bald +50 yo male, the other was a younger slimmer face, 20-30 y.o maybe. My speculation is that faces were of other meditators but I would not bet on it.
The first half of the session, I was fairly calm and in an observing / listening / non-judgmental state. Close to the 8.10 AM mark on the graph, the actual* meditation session started and I've felt the energies stronger than before. Had some difficulty in remaining balanced, which is reflected in the chart with a spike I think. The topic was self-judgement and as the meditation progressed, I've felt the tightness on my neck and at some point I've felt it got relieved.
When I was presenting something infront of a crowd, I used to pay too much attention on how I look on the stage and my neck would get super stiff. This meditation session reminded me of this.
75 minute meditation session.
I needed to sleep but my mind kept working, so I lied down to meditate a bit and maybe fall into sleep. This was a very refreshing session and I proceeded to sleep afterwards.
1 hour meditation / yoga session.
Lied down on the floor. Stayed in some particular positions for long periods of time. Stretched my legs, hips and back muscles and worked on aligning my spine.
70 minute meditation session.
I'm trying to build this new habit of "when I feel like shit, sit & meditate to understand why I'm feeling like shit and then do whatever is necessary."
Towards the end of the session, I had more clarity and my "todo-list" became more clear. In my final vision, there was a sieve with 4 small sugar cubes and 1 big sugar cube; as if the "dust" got filtered down and only the ones that I need to pay attention was left on the sieve.
75 minute yoga & meditation session.
I wasn't able to focus at all and my mind was just slowly moving from topic to topic. Practiced some yin yoga and also wanted to see if Muse would still work reliably. It kinda does, but makes it harder to stay in some positions and not worth it overall.
My right eye is "less open" than my left eye. When my eyes are closed, I can feel the difference from inside and it's also visible on the mirror if I examine closely. I focused on playing with my inner face muscles + eye muscles to "open my right eye". For a couple of situations, it did feel like my both eyes were aligned and "open" at the same rate. I think some muscles are weak or "stuck". Likewise, I can easily spot a similar issue with my mom's left eye.
1 hour meditation session.
First 20 minutes was mostly breathing & trying to get into a comfortable position. Towards mid session, I started to fall asleep a couple of times. In the second half of the session, I was awake but "thoughts" were more like dreams. Saw a face with a long pointy chin, leaning on a surface horizontally, looking at me with a big grin. Got a bit spooked 😅
I think I need to do longer sessions.
30 minute sitting.
Focused on my eyes. My right eye is more tense than my left eye.
Mostly focused my attention to my body. Worked on relaxing my legs.
I didn't sleep much today. Woke up early to attend to some calls. Before the 3rd call, I got super sleepy and decided to do something like a "sleep-meditation" for 30 mins. Felt like if I did it for an hour, it would have been much more vigorous.
Also first time seeing my gamma below 0. I wonder if its related with sleep-states?
So I have been trying to optimize my workflows and one thing that I constantly do is
This process was too long, so I tried to focus on a better workflow.
I still want the files on my PC, but I want them to be easily displayable on a webpage. I first tried google-drive public folders, it works, but the url structure is too cumbersome. I need to get the image ID and put it into the following link
Later that, I tried keybase's file management system (KPFS), it also has "public" folder and the links are much more simpler:
So new flow looks like
1 hour meditation session. The right ear sensor is having problems again. I've also realized I made the headband too tight this time, especially on the ears.
The first half, I had problems focusing, my mind was like "you don't have time for this, you have a lot to do". But I kept reminding myself that whatever I do after meditation goes more smooth. Also my lower spine started to hurt so I lied down and took a more comfortable position. The second half was a "good" meditation session imo.
I'm not sure whether I can / should / want to take notes of my subjective experiences during "good meditation" states. I'll probably do that in future sessions.
Okey now when I like a track on Spotify, it is recorded on Google Sheets then pushed into Webflow CMS and displayed on ezerel.com
I think the embedded spotify images grab too much attention so I want to make them visible when clicked on a button. But that's a task for another time.
I'm questioning why do I use Google Sheets in between Spotify and Webflow. Why don't I just use Spotify to Webflow integration for new posts? For potential debugging purposes maybe? Or perhaps as a "backup list"? I think I'll just use Spotify to Webflow zap for now...
I'm currently trying to unify all my likes in one place: ezerel.com/likes
I'm starting with Spotify, this is what I have in mind.
Like a music on mobile or desktop app >
Music saved to "liked" playlist on Spotify >
Zapier takes the newly added song to the playlist and adds it to a row in Google Sheets >
Zapier takes the song and creates new like-item in Webflow CMS.
This approach will quickly reach to Webflow's 2000 CMS item limit, especially after I add other services. Still, it gets the job done for the short term.